Hmm, is the world getting harder? Is she trying to shake us off, not sure. I never expected my later years in life would have all this drama. World dominated drama. Phew!!!
Well, at this age you would think that my life would be kinda uneventful? You would be wrong. I find that I spend my days just trying to stay sane. I know that my life is not hard, but what should be my time is not. And truth be told, I really don’t mind. Getting a second chance at life and family is something that I’m really proud of. I was really lost back in the day. So lost, I missed out on a lot of things. I kept myself in the dark for a reason. When she died, that was the day my life kinda stopped. It would take years to find myself again. Thanks to a wonderful woman, my mom and her second chances, we survived. (Our little family)
Then many moons later our family shrunk by a few. We grew up, including me. Then we became the brady bunch and the family got a whole lot bigger. Blessings abound for eveyone. A new life beginning and sadly a old life lost. But, that old life left us in a better place. All we have is each other. As I get older, I now start thinking when I become that old life? What will the outcome be?? All I know is…
When I don’t think I have the strength, I look at my slightly bigger family and smile. This is why we are here, this is why I’m here.
Some will come and some will go… but always still family!
Just when you think that you have it all figured out. Bam… little thing pops up and now you have to comb though all of it to find what your looking for. Well I don’t understand that it is just the same as the last one… heck? maybe? even more stuff than that and now it’s not good enough???
Yeah, I keep telling myself that I’m going to be writing on this and that I will find the time to post a few things here and there. WELL, that is not going to happen anytime soon. I have decided to become a learning coach to all my grandchildren and do some homeschool. 5+ kids a day and when the bell rings at 3:30 or 4:30, whichever comes first, I AM DEAD TIRED. So, see something from me during spring break or summer vacation.
Well, it’s at least one time a year or two. I do find that I don’t have a lot on my plate, but enough on my mind. A lot of things have changed over the last year and boy it would take so much time just put it in a blog. (and then realize that my razor keyboard is really loud and everyone has gone to bed and I don’t want to wake them up so I’ll finish tomorrow…(???) Tomorrow came and went and I still haven’t gotten back to this thing. Maybe later, sometime down the road, I will. Still have a lot on my mind and I will get to this, I promise!
Poppy is the best and I hope he never dies. I love you!!!
We spend so much time worrying about what is going to happen tomorrow, that we forget to live for today. I find myself always worrying about tomorrow. Having anxiety about everything that’s going to happen. I forget to check out just today. I sure miss out on a lot of things. Little things, but the most important things. Big things I can’t change should never be the focus of my time or my time is being wasted. If your going to worry about everything , worry about today… and hope tomorrow comes to do it all over again.
Just putting a few thoughts on paper and see what I write.
I hope that the holidays are going to good for the grandchildren this year? They seem to have good ones every year and don’t fight too much about who got what. I don’t get too thrilled about myself around this time of year, but it sure makes me happy to see the kids smile, all of them. I’m not the type of person to dwell in the past because my past wasn’t the greatest. I have my family and that’s all that counts for me now. It does seem we tend to lose people along the way. I think that’s why I feel down this time of year is that because so much is happening on a daily basis. I don’t get time to think about the past. It frustrates me a lot to think that I’m forgetting those that I have lost. On rare occasions, I run across a smell or a sound that reminds me of them, but today always drags me back to the present. I don’t want to forget the details and they seem to be slipping from my memories.
So I think I’ll try to keep a journal of what I can remember so my kids and grandkids can get a glimpse of something we lost so long ago.
Well, that’s enough of pity pot for today…and I was just testing out Grammarly to see if it suited my needs to keep my spelling and grammar in check.
I just spent the week analyzing the internet. Well my internet as I see it. Just the parts that pertain to just me, from what I look up, to what I read on a daily basis. And I found out a lot of interesting things.
The biggest thing I found out is the lack of credibility of most of the stuff I was reading. I normally don’t delve into politics, but with the state of the internet these last few weeks. It’s hard not to NOT see something left wing or right wing, left nut or right nut. Who zoomed who and with what. I don’t like talking politics or religion, because it’s always the match that starts a wildfire that tends to burn bridges. Pitting one against another and always ends in tragedy.
The one thing I see the most is the biased media on both sides of the isle. And DAMN, boy don’t they sure get the facts wrong and it spreads like a wildfire. The sad part is that most or all of this misinformation could be avoided if everyone would just take the time to fact check. While sometimes it takes a little effort, anything is better then losing a friend or family member due to ignorance. And that ignorance can go both ways.
I tend to try to be bipartisan with a little leaning on the left side (as of this writing). Back in the day I always voted Republican. My first time voting was for the first Bush. And I can say that as I got older I got wiser and by that, I mean I studied what I was voting for. I found that a 2 party democracy for me at least sucks. The corporate side of the right just seems to make the rich, richer and I mean mega richer. And the social side of the left seems to put to much in the hands of the Gov. The right seems to want to be in the business of regulating a woman body… I believe it’s none of my damn business. The left seems to think one size fits all in everything and the government needs to run it.
Damn it, I wasn’t going to do a point for point..I was talking about credibility. Back to that!
Well we will get back to that later, grand-kids just surprised me with coming home early from school….and with all the noise, I can’t write shit!!
Holidays cut into writing time.